Have you ever felt like you were drowning in everyday life? That all you ever did was mundane tasks and you were forever cleaning up, and constantly irritated and frazzled? I feel like I have been living in a mental fog.. One where joy is taking a back seat and unimportant things are ruling my time.
The past few months have been really tough. I have battling with my second round of Post Natal Depression for the past 7 months. It hasn’t been easy I have been getting professional help and tried a thousand things…
But I no longer want a quick fix or something that will help with the symptoms… I want to be free of my demons and see happiness everyday. I want to be full of joy and time and hope. I want change. Change for myself for my girls for my partner. I want us to be embracing life and grabbing hold of it with both hands.
On one of my extremely down and exhausted days I was doing what I always do scrolling through billions of articles on how to help with depression when I stumbled upon this article by Allie Casazza I then watched this video of hers. I had tears in my eyes reading and watching this I really felt like Allie new exactly where I was at. I remember jokingly saying to Matt I have found my spirit animal. I then told him “babe I want to become a minimalist”.
This was huge for me as I have always been a hoarder clothes was a massive one for me. When I was 21 I had one of the worse years of my life alot of things happened and my hoarding became out of control. My brother came over and helped me for two weeks straight to get rid of as much as I could. In hindsight wasn’t enough at the time though I was really happy with what I had achieved.
But now I realize I was decluttering and reorganizing not minamalising. This time I was going to do it right my biggest motivation was I no longer wanted to say to my girls in a minute knowing that that minute was never going to come. I want to have time to play cook laugh and love.
So on Friday 19th May when Matt got home from work we began an epic 72 hour purge. We started with the toy clutter then did the girls clothes then the whole house. It was an emotional roller coaster. Somethings I thought why on earth have I kept this.
I love that with becoming a minimalist you get rid of the things that are getting in the way of you living the life you want to live. You would be surprised just how much stuff that is . Ours is about 60+ garbage bags of stuff that was just taking up space in our lives. We donated as much as possible and cleared it out as quick as possible so as not to rummage back through the bags.
It was empowering, stressful and exhilarating all at once. I remember one of the days I sat in the playroom in tears feeling overwhelmed that it was never going to end that the things were just going to keep accumulating. I was giving up hope I hate getting rid of anything that belongs to the girls it feels like I am getting rid a part of their childhood even if they never wore it or never played with it.
Thats when Miss Dot comes in and said “Mumma I love how much more room I have to play with Noons (Little Lilah) in here. It made me smile and give me the reassurance I needed to keep going.
The next day we tackled art and craft supplies Dot wasn’t happy about that.. Thats when I said “if we have less things Mummy will have more time to play”. Dot all of a sudden started grabbing handfuls of things and purging them then said excitedly said “what else can we get rid of”.
It’s been 6 days since the beginning of the purge I have already noticed changes which I will write another post about. Huge shout out to my man you are my rock and there’s no way I could do this without you. I am really excited to see where this journey is going to take me and my little tribe.